The Liminal Line

liminal: of, or relating to, the state in-between


Friday
Aug272010

The Rebirth of Slick, An Additive Adventure Entry

In Conjunction With OutsideTV.com

Three weeks from today, I’ll be flying to Ethiopia. I’ve been training for trip. I’ve been aqua jogging.

   Actually, I just had to stop aqua jogging. I was over-training with the 12”-wide water-flotation device. In my defense, I was just trying to keep up with Astrid, the 65-year old woman with a hip and knee replacement. At 33 with two back surgeries, I was eating her aquatic dust. It’s a good thing I’ve finally been cleared to go back to climbing. It’s about time—East Africa is looming close.

   Not everyone sees it like this. My father does not understand why I am a) going on a trip in Ethiopia so close to two back surgeries and b) flying to Ethiopia so close to two back surgeries. “Do you know how long the plane ride is?” he asks me each time we talk.

   “18 hours,” I usually say, wondering if he thinks it will get shorter or longer if he keeps checking.

   “Are you sure this is a good idea?” he asks.

   It’s hard to reassure anyone who took care of you during the height of your drug hazed post operative days that going to the grocery store by yourself is a good idea, let alone going to Ethiopia. So to reassure my father, I have had to resort to going to his sweet spot.

   “Think of the poodle,” I say. “Don’t you think he’d be proud of me?”

 

The poodle, at last count, has cancer, one torn knee we fixed, and another we didn’t. I have prepared myself to put him down on four separate occasions in four different states all in the past ten months. He got cancer in Jackson, Wyoming, ate a ½ pound of chocolate and went feral for twenty hours in Minnesota, tore knee  number one in New Hampshire, and knee number two in Montana. His second knee injury and my second surgery were in near-perfect synch. We both spent June in various stiff positions to manage our pain with rumpled curly hair and bad breath from all of our medications.

They say pets have perfect timing in your life, even if you don’t know it at the time of their timing. This winter and spring, Osito and I were like the chicken and the egg. I skipped a February trip to Norway and took care of him—but my back would not really have let me go. I had a reason to stay stateside other than myself, and thus I was home in NH when the reflexes in my right foot started waning. In Montana in May, the stairs in our house were too scary for a poodle in recovery, and soon the hospital’s medical regulations were too scary for my insurance. Thus, together, we tried out a half-dozen places to live and recover, and together, we came home to Boulder.

Three months and an aqua jogging career have now come and gone. Osito and I went on a hike this morning. Afterwards, I dropped him off at home and went climbing outside for my second time since February. I came back and we lay on the floor together and did our PT.

People seem surprised when they learn I have a dog. How can you do what you do with a dog they ask? I usually explain to them first that I have a poodle, which is different than a dog. And then, if I have not already lost them, I tell them the truth. I do what I do because of the poodle. We have a deal. We have always had deals, though sometimes I am not as savvy to their terms. This past winter our deal was about time together. This fall, our deal is recovery. So I am going to Africa, and the poodle will be here when I get home.

   In the meantime, they’ve closed my aqua-jogging pool early this summer. They’ve opened it for the dogs. It is Boulder. So this weekend, the poodle will be the aqua jogger, and I’ll be the climber, and together we’ll get ready for what’s next.

 

Read more about Ethiopia at Imagine Ethiopia 2010.

 



Thursday
Aug122010

The Ballad You Forgot, An Additive Adventure Entry

A blog in conjunction with Osprey Packs and Outside Television.

Let’s get this out of the way. I was 8. I made bad choices like singing Don’t Fence Me In at my father’s second wedding and lying down on the carpet in the school loft; I had bad choices foisted upon me, like a two-inch buzz cut—billed as a smart fashion move with the added benefit of being easier to treat lice (the loft). No wonder I felt sorry for the people in Ethiopia.

   My older sister terrorized me, I had a boy hair cut, and glasses. They were starving, being relocated 400 miles away from their families and heritage, and in the middle of one of the most militaristic regimes in modern Africa called The Red Terror. I did what any person feeling a great sense of connected persecution would do. I wrote a ballad.

   Listen along with me (click play on the photo above) Or if you can’t bear it, here is the chorus: “People in Ethiopia, want to have some food and love.” Although what I am really singing is peee-pole in Eeethiooopia, want to have some foooooood and lo-uv-uv. Remember, think ballad. Either way you write it, it went on, passionately. 

The half completed Laelay Weste Community School   I sang about helping the children, holding the children, as if I was not a child myself while singing. There are three minutes and thirty-five seconds of my most heartfelt worries about a place and people I only knew from grainy BBC imagery of utter desolation and haunted skeletal women, men, and children, always too many children.

 

Over a million people died in the 1984 famine. In Minnesota, our school lives revolved around it with full student body renditions of "We Are the World" at every assembly. It is that song I remember. I forgot my own.

 

25 years later, I went to Ethiopia for a story about coffee. I entered a country of extreme duality--both the poverty I expected, and bounty--agricultural, spiritual, and human--unlike I have ever known. It was supposed to be a three-week trip. Instead I followed a trajectory from coffee to a climbing trip for first ascents on sandstone towers and cracks, to a book that asked how adventure offers a lens for a deeper understanding of culture. I then got up in front of groups of six people to six hundred and tried out answers. I learned, and re-learned, how to ask the questions. And then, my mother found the ballad.

   I had one lecture left for the Vertical Ethiopia tour when she sent me an email. “Did you know you wrote a song about Ethiopia? I have it.”

 

A young student showing off his artistic side with the rest of his class at one of imagine1day's schoolsMaybe we all know who we will become as adults when we are eight years old. Maybe I am just lucky. Maybe I had to forget to remember. I cringe at my warbling 8-year old voice. At one point I surmise, in song: “They don’t even have a turkey.” To be fair, twenty five-years and five months of time in Ethiopia later, I was pretty dead on about the lack of turkeys. I was also pretty dead on about how much a person can care.           

   Six weeks from today, Imagine Ethiopia 2010 kicks off.  We’re heading to Tigray, the Ethiopian region at the heart of the 1984 famine.  That is where I climbed, where imagine1day is building their schools, where together we will create a new school. I will, undoubtedly see a lot of eight year olds. I might even see myself.

 

See the new children of Tigray in imagine1day's video trailer: This is Our Story.

Friday
Jul302010

Me, As a Dot. An Additive Adventure Entry*

Photo By Gabe RogelFrom OutsideTV.com.

I have no idea who the people are who will change my life in the next two years. I had no idea, two years ago, that a woman making a spontaneous stop in a Patagonia store in California would change mine now. Susanne Conrad caught a glimpse of a tall hardbound book called Vertical Ethiopia. I’d written it, but that didn’t matter to her, then. Ethiopia mattered.

A few months later, a random email appeared in my inbox. Sapna Dayal introduced herself and suggested that we might have much in common. She was the executive director of imagine1day, a non-profit dedicated to changing the world’s future via building schools in Ethiopia. We spent following winter months talking. I’d come home from ice climbing in New Hampshire and watch it get dark and cold in New England as Sapna would pause her afternoon in a rainy Vancouver for us to brainstorm about how to work together in the high desert in the Horn of Africa.

This September 23rd marks the start of our answer. Sapna, Susanne and I, along with Shannon Wilson, are leading a group on a three-week journey of adventure, global stewardship, and scared connection.  Together, we’re raising enough money to build a new school—imagine1day’s 7th primary school in Ethiopia. We’re going rock climbing, visiting ancient churches, hiking to schools imagine1day built where the wells that broke ground were often the first ever in a three-mile radius, and more. 

 

Photo by Gabe RogelRemember when you were a kid and you’d connect the dots on cheap piece of paper to make the Little Engine that Could or Strawberry Shortcake? Remember when you were young enough to not know what you were connecting until it was done? I have no idea what we are all drawing together. I am just one of the dots. I’m a leader dot-- the Ethiopia and adventure expert on the trip, but I still have no idea what our picture will look like.

Today I’m kicking off a pre-trip series of etchings via blogs. Come back. Every other week I’ll tell you more about what we’re doing. I’ll post up an audio clip of 1984 ballad about Ethiopia—that I wrote, when I was eight. It’s bad. It’s a ballad. (It was the 80’s).


Learn more, get involved, become a dot:

Imagine Ethiopia 2010 the Trip

Who’s Coming With Us

How Ethiopia Started

 

*Additive Adventure, the New Sub Blog on The Liminal Line (or, what happened to the poodles?)

  • What is additive adventure? Majka Burhardt made it up. But she's betting you might live your life in a quest for the same--when adventure goes beyond exploration and toward cultural and environmental connection. "Additive Adventure" tracks Majka's forays into the greater world while she asks for the linkages between...everything. Read Majka's stories of the far afield and track how she brings them close to home every other Friday.
  • Don't worry. I'll still be talking about poodles and life and how to navigate choice. How could I not?

 



Monday
Jun142010

Bigger This Time

Self Portrait, attempt 13Believe the hype, drink the cool-aid, make the trip. That’s my motto this month. I didn’t start it. My friend Sara did. Actually, an intuitive did. Or, to be precise, my decision to go see an intuitive.

A month ago, while driving through the dark streets of Bozeman, I called Sara in Bend. We’d both lived together in Boulder a few years back. “I’m going to see an intuitive,” I announced.

“You know that’s a psychic, right?” Sara asked.

“No it’s not,” I said. “I’m not all oovy groovy like that.”

Sara laughed. “You’re the worst kind of oovy groovy. You’re closet oovy groovy.”

“I’m not repressed,” I countered, “I say things like universe, truth…and…”

“Let it out Majka,” Sara said. “Nothing’s ever good in the closet.”

 

Two weeks after our conversation, I was at MountainFilm Telluride sitting in an audience of 300 plus listening to Rick Hodes, a doctor who’s devoted the greater part of his life to giving others a better life in Ethiopia, Ghana, and beyond. He showed photos of his past patients who’ve become current friends. I don’t know how many of us in that group had seen an intuitive that week. I don’t know how many were set on out path, mid-change, mid-execution of as change, or mid-evening nap. What I do know is that the oovy groovy was out of the closet.

After Rick, we all sat together and watched I Am, a Tom Shadyac (of Ace Ventura, Bruce Almighty, and now the vision behind an about-face documentary film about the point of life) film. We followed flocks of birds make communal decisions, saw people controlling their energetic output through their spirit, watched animals love and fight. Granted, we were in the oovy grrovy vortex of Telluride. But it was amplified. Maybe because we all wanted it to be.

 

There is beauty in allowing ourselves to be impacted by others. I want to delete that as I write it. Sara would say it’s the closet oovy-groovy in me wants to erase it. But it’s still there. I fight it, all of it, but I’m doing so lying down. Today I’m six days post my second back surgery in eight weeks, I’ve stopped trying so hard to fight anything. I could say I have accepted it all, but I don’t want to get ahead of myself.

Communal LivingIn the past two months, I have slept in guest rooms of nine houses, borrowed five cars, had dozens of friends drive me to the doctor, and had countless more dozens of strangers hold doors, pick up the pens I drop, or make room for me to pass them, slowly, en route to the next moment of my life. My dog has been tended to by strangers, four vets, and my extended family. Last week, he settled into sharing his bed- his perfectly clean non-shedding poodle bed with an Entlebucher Sennehunde, an exceptionally hairy dog who eats elk carcasses and expels them near whole as a pastime. They slept butt to butt. Neither of them seemed to mind. 

They slept that way before the poodle tore his second ACL in 4 months, and after. They’d still sleep that way now if Peter hadn’t brought the poodle back home to be in Boulder.

 

This was not the plan. I was supposed to be kicking butt in Bozeman this summer. Instead, today, I took a two-hour nap with the poodle and tried to take self-portrait of us in bed. He didn’t cooperate. We’re on the mend. Like it or not.

 

The day I drove home from Telluride, three Ethiopian runners crossed a finish line in a Boulder Colorado running race holding hands. That was the night after Rick Hodes’ talk about Ethiopia, less than 24-hours after I’d realized he’d worked with my good friend Andrew Swanson, a friend who was killed last June on Denali. Rick was the man, I suddenly understood, whom Andrew had wanted me to meet the next time I was in Addis. We’d hoped to all be there one day together.

Lelisa Desisa, Tilahun Regassa and Tadese Tola clasped their fingers and palms at the end of a 10K race. Maybe it’s not a big deal. Maybe it’s exactly what I’m talking about.

*And yes, I am still on meds.  Stay tuned for tips on using the shoe donner and the tush cush.            



Tuesday
May182010

Mountainfilm and Get in Shape Girl: Rehab in Pink

In my mind, it was in the middle of the Miss USA pageant when I first saw the add. A cadre of young girls in leotards burst through a door and waved ribbons and moved their arms around with weighted wristbands. It was horrifying, even without the music.

“Get in shape girl, you know the feeling.”

“Get in shape girl, it’s so appealing.”

I was seven. It was right around the age when I cornered Reed in the coatroom and pinched him for saying mankind instead of humankind. I have no idea where this behavior came from. Nor do I understand why it was ok in my mind to watch the Miss Universe pageant and keep my own score (I was convinced the judges had it out for us Midwesterners), but the actions of Hasbro Toy Company were offensive. Fitness in a package? In the same aisle as Barbie? (In the same aisle as the Barbie I wanted?)

 

Today, over 25 years later, I bought my first set of 2 pound weights. Pink ones. It was all they had. They are all I am allowed to use, for now. Currently, I lie on the floor and wave them around above my head, hips, I make snow angels on every imaginary plane intersecting my body. If I move them for long enough, I am convinced, I will feel something.

 

I have carried Get in Shape Girl all over the world. Having a hard time hiking in Nepal? Get in Shape Girl. Huffing on Chimborazo? Get in Shape Girl.  Trying to keep up on the approach to Come and Get it in Hyalite? Get in Shape Girl. For me, the song always comes into my head when I am on my way to do something and sucking wind. No wonder the vertical world makes more sense to me—it’s jingleless. If I ever start singing Get in Shape Girl while climbing, I want an intervention.

 

The Poodle, waitingNext week, I take off for Mountainfilm in Telluride. They are showing Waypoint Namibia. Last year, at the exact time we’ll watch the movie on the big screen, the real thing was happening. Last year, right now, I was in shape. This year, I will tuck my pink weights into my luggage and fly to Colorado. I will wave them in the air every morning and night of the festival. I will not walk around town with them. But not because I would be too embarrassed. I’m just not allowed to yet.

I’ve grown up. I don’t pinch people who say mankind anymore. I understand that sometimes, we all need the pink weights. We need them to get back to our lives—to carrying poodles up stairs they are too scared to climb, to carrying ourselves to the places we want to understand, to carrying our lives forward. There's a face in Africa that's caught my eye, after all.

 

*Miss California, Julie Hayek, won Miss USA in 1983. No midwesterners were in the top 10.

**If you absolutely have to, you can see the original here. But I wouldn't advise it...